starz and rockets

i love rain clouds and thunderstorms in the middle of the night

i love when he hugs me so tight

i love sleeping in over sized shirts

i love the way me and him flirt

I love to lay out in the middle of the grass

i love the memories and the time to pass

i love to sing songs that are inspirational

i love the words he speaks because they are motivational

i love to hear the cries of a piano’s keys 

i love the sound of his voice because it puts me at ease

i love the snow and the sunshine on a cold winters day

i love the way he moves in such a graceful way

i love cherry red lollipops and sweet lemonade

i love how he makes me feel so unafraid

I love who is he and all that he will become

I would love to find this special someone…

Sweet love, sweet love, trapped in your love
I’ve opened up, unsure I can trust
My heart and I were buried in dust
Free me, free us

You’re all I need when I’m holding you tight
If you walk away I will suffer tonight

I found a man I can trust and boy, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can you see that I’m bound in chains?
I’ve finally found my way

I am bound to you
I am bound to you

So much, so young, I’ve faced on my own
Walls I built up became my home
I’m strong and I’m sure there’s a fire in us
Sweet love, so pure
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/c/christina-aguilera-lyrics/bound-to-you-lyrics.html ]

I catch my breath with just one beating heart
And I embrace myself, please don’t tear this apart

I found a man I can trust and boy, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can you see that I’m bound in chains?
I’ve finally found my way

I am bound to you
I am bound to

Suddenly the moment’s here, I embrace my fears
All that I have been carrying all these years
Do I risk it all? Come this far just to fall? Fall

I have entrusted, boy, I believe in us
I am terrified to love for the first time
Can you see that I’m bound in chains?
And finally found my way

I am bound to you
I am, ooh I am
I’m bound to you

Everyday I think about him.. what hes doing, what hes thinking, whats his day like.. is he happy.. mad.. sad. I find myself talking about him all day to my friends and my family (well the ones who are understanding of my relationship). Everything reminds me of him. I never thought I would love someone so deeply and care so much for one person like this. He is my everything.. my other half. I was always the girl who hated relationships and did not believe in marriage or love. I felt like those sort of things only existed in stories and the minds of delusional teenagers. Then he came into my life. I met him and my outlook on love has changed. I have changed. When I am with him I believe I feel love true deep love. Many people would like to believe other wise since we have only been together for a few months. But not to many people can say they truly understand how I feel for him. I say I love him and they all look at me with pity. They say I am blinded by lust and that is not true love. what do they know.. I tell him I love him every chance I get because I do not want that love to die out. I stay up and talk to him as much as I do because I dont know how much time we have left. I talk about him all day because I want to keep my memories alive. He makes me fall in love with him each and every day. I look back on these things and I realized wow I understand those delusional teenagers :). I just love everything about him. what can I say.. and when I think about my future I plan it out where it involves him. I can not see myself without him. I believe that there really is no one else. We started dating when we barely knew each other. Most would say that is a recipe for disaster. But this time has been nothing but pure bliss. His smile is what gives me hope and the way he looks at me gives me reason enough to keep fighting for him. I would do everything and anything for his happiness and I know he would do the same. The nights we spend talking and the countless hours I spend thinking about him are endless. I have what seems like an obsession with him. The nights I have spent sleeping in his arms, running around a park, watching movies, talking on the phone, singing random songs, making our own little jokes, walking through darkened tunnels and over walls have been some of the best nights of my entire life. He is the only one I feel comfortable enough to cry in front of and the only person I am willing to be completely honest with. I can tell him anything and I feel that he can do the same for me as well. He is my best friend and I trust him with anything. He amazes me a lot actually. Its one of the things that makes me love him so much more.. I love the random text messages in the middle of my day that make me smile from ear to ear some would say. The I love yous and the reassuring messages about how much he cares for me or what he likes about me are special. I love that simple fact that he loves me back truly loves me back. I love the way he holds me close to him when im scared and upset. I hate goodbyes and I never want to say them.. especially to him. Ive been thinking about this a lot more lately. The other day I gave him a birthday present to take with him when he leaves for the marines… I wanted him to have it as a reminder that he always has me no matter how far away he may be.. He is always always in my heart and on my mind. I also remember that I gave him a hug right before I left to go home one night and as he held me my mind raced with all the ways the one goodbye I dread the most will play out. I started to cry because I never want to say goodbye. I pictured him in a military uniform saying goodbye to all his family and then walking over to me and looking at me with those big blue/green eyes and bringing me close to him for a hug. I hug him tighter and he does the same to me and he says I love you and thats when the water works set in and I say I love you more and he looks at me kisses me on the lips then on my forehead and says goodbye.. although it may only be three months when he leaves thats just the beginning.I am so afraid he will lose interest in me or perhaps feel as though his feelings for me have died out. I do not want to lose him and I have always feared that he might just forget about me waiting here for him and he has moved on. I just do not want to lose him. it will be one of the hardest things I ever had to do. I think about that day so much now and its getting harder and harder to know that time is running out… I love him more than anything in the world and no one else can change that. I will be here waiting for him whenever he comes back I will always be here. Every moment I spend with him is the greatest. Hands down he is my favorite and I just cant get over how much love I have for him. I love you baby always! 

Although I went into this night thinking the worst possible things ever and feeling like a nervous wreck having my parents in the same room as my boyfriend (whom they have had a previous bad experience with). Never the less my boyfriend was able to make my night one of the most memorable nights ever. On prom night he gave me a promise ring. He promised to love me forever and ever. I believe in my heart that he truly will keep that promise to me. We danced together and laughed and kissed our way through the night at prom and left completely happy, other than the fact that we had to part once again. He made a special promise to me that night and i will wear that promise everyday. Tonight he held me in his arms as we watched a movie in my family room.. kissed when ever my family was no where in sight and laughed each other as we quickly glanced around the room for any sight of curious eyes that were all around my house :). we sat on my trampoline and played around for a bit jumping around and “birding” one another. then the night came and the stars slowly starting to come into view. A few stars were in plain blue across the sky and my boyfriend pulls me closer to him and says you see that star right there its the brightest star in the night sky and its yours.. i laughed noticing that he doesnt realize that the brightest star in the sky at this time was right behind his head and he looks at me and asks what i was laughing about and i point to the star and he turns around and pulls me close to him once again and repeats you see that star right there hahaha hes so cute but these are the reasons that i love him. we just layed there gazing at the stars and talking. he held me in his arms and i felt so happy. happy that i have such a great boyfriend. He loves me and i love him nothing can change that. Sure no one sees it and thinks we are completely insane for even thinking that we have fallen in love so fast but he is the perfect guy for me. We are happy together and thats all that matters. Some say i am dumb for thinking we are gonna make it but the more im with him the more i think wow im pretty damn close to mental retardation if thats the case. Call it what you will and think all you want to think about it but in the end he is mine and i couldnt be anymore thankful. Just the thought of him leaving me for the military tears my heart a little bit and i feel as though i will lose him forever but he promises to come back for me he promises to always be mine that promise is what keeps my hopes alive. I love him with all my heart i really do. I would be so lost without him. He is my happiness and my love and my everything and i dont care who knows it. He is the reason i smile and the reason i have faith in myself. he tells me everything and i tell him the same. Being in his arms makes my entire world standstill. Motionless and happy. Time seems to go by to quickly when im with him which is unfortunate because i never want him to go. Whether its going home or away for boot camp it makes me sad to see him go. But i know he will be back and we will be as happy as can be once again. He is my life and I am his and we couldnt ask for more. For some reason i feel like the more i see him the more my feelings grow for him. As if they really could grow any larger but they can i suppose i mean afterall nothing is impossible. We talked about him leaving for boot camp and i started to cry a little bit. He says he will be back and we will be just fine but i shake my head in agreement but my mind is yelling please dont leave me. I know we will be fine but i know the feeling of him being away from me all to well. Its painful but its what has to be done. I think i am just blabbering on and on now lol but in short i love him and he makes me the happiest girl alive. I love you baby and I always will forever and ever :) 

-starz and rockets <3

its all kinda just now hitting me! Tomorrow i am gonna be getting up and getting ready for this spectacular memorable happy night of prom. I am not really that big on dresses and nails and hair and all that stuff that goes into just getting ready for prom.. I am just excited I get to be in his arms again. To look into his eyes and see that little spark that makes his eyes just irresistible. To look at him and see him smiling back at me. Just to be able to have him hold me hand and pull me closer to him. To laugh at his little jokes. To dance around with him even if hes not the greatest haha. Just being in his presences will make my senior prom the greatest night of my senior year.. He is my happiness. I can see forever in his eyes and i hope they never lose that look :). I wish i could fall asleep in his arms every night and i never want to let him go. Never ever ever. but im getting off track here.. tomorrow should be awesome. I hope he will think i look good for prom… after all like i said im not big on the dress up stuff

-starz and rockets 

Of all the days for me to work.. I worked on Friday the thirteenth. Some people do not believe in the bad luck or anything that occurs on this day but for me i do and then again i don’t. I went to school early with a huge headache and stomach pains and just a mess knowing that this was all probably from sleep deprivation thanks to work and school and the countless assignments that i procrastinated on so carelessly. Anyways.. i get to work and everything is kind of going okay i guess.. then we get this huge rush of people and all of our popcorn poppers broke! We were popcorn less! people were angry and throwing little fits all over the place ugh.. Just when we got our poppers up and running again the coffee machine breaks and more people are upset. then we ran out of cheese ugh it just never ends.. but I got off on time and then talked with some coworkers in the hallway. Called my baby but he was tired so i sat in the way and waited to go home. finally home now and bored outa my mind i should sleep but i have so much homework i wanted to get some of it out of the way.. PROM DRESSES TOMORROW!!! 

He is my everything, he makes me smile even when i’m down. He says he loves me and i believe him and know in my heart that he will always be here. We made it through a tough situation and we have grown so much closer through that period of time. There are more difficult times to come but i know that i have him and hes not going anywhere without knowing he has me :). I love his smile, his laugh, his eyes, his voice, his everything. I learned to love him like how i learned to ride my bike.. scared but reckless with no training wheels or elbow pads so my scars can tell the story of how i fell for him. I fell for him the first time i met him. He makes me happy and gives me hope for brighter better days. I always look forward to his good morning messages and the endless hours i spend fighting my sleep just to learn more and more about him. He is my favorite subject and I can study him for days. When our lips touch i feel those butterflies in my stomach, when he holds my hand i feel wanted, in his arms i feel safe, in his eyes i feel loved.  I never imagined i would find someone that i feel so strongly for. No one has ever made me feel so happy to be with them before. Naive is what they would call me, crazy is what they might think of my kind of love. But IGNORANCE IS BLISS. He is my world and i wouldnt change that for anyone or anything. Like i said i dont want the whole world the sun the moon or all of their light.. i just want him to love me for the rest of my life ;). I could go on an on talking about him and give each detail about what i love that he does but that would take awhile. “if i could i would sample his smile and let my heart beat create the bass line and we could be the greatest love song of all time… When my friends ask if you’re my boyfriend, ill say no. He is my musician. And as for me.. Im his favorite song” <3 I love him and no one else could ever compare. He brings me happiness and an irreplaceable love. who could want more? 

-starz and rockets